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Oct. 24th, 2009 | 07:52 am
mood: thoughtful thoughtful

Heey, long time no see. Haven't really been in the journal mood, if you know what I mean. I haven't been on here in weeks.

Anyway, I've been doing a bit of apologizing. Mostly to Sam because I know I've hurt her the most. I wish I could do over the past few weeks, f'real. I've been kind of a jerk without realizing it, so I sent a long apology on facbook because I don't know when the next good time would have been. Plus I wanted to tell her ASAP, you know? That was the most important apology that I've done recently.

I sort of did a silent apology to Megan the other night and gave her a big hug. I had been feeling really upset because I realized I didn't have enough compassion for people in my life, and I was ready to change. So I prayed about it, and suddenly I felt this urge to go hug Megan. So I did and she said that she had needed that. It was cool :)

Then with my parents, another silent apology. I've been trying not to get riled up when my mom asks me to do something or when my parents yell at me because they decided that I'm a lazy good-for-nothing slob who does nothing around the house because I'm dumb. I guess I've kind of had a bad attitude toward them for a while, and so I asked God for help with that. I'm getting better, I suppose.

Then I felt bad because I was talking to Liz and Sara at youth group about prayer concerns for like...a long time. And Jace tried to tell me goodbye twice, and I completely ignored him. I didn't even hear him at all. Then I texted him and was like, "You didn't even say goodbye!" because I thought he had just left, and I was a little aggravated (getting more minutes asap). And he sounded either upset or mad when he texted me back to tell me I was too busy with Liz and Sara and I ignored him. Felt like a jerk. So I apologized and he was like, "It's fine." Urgh.

So yeah. Lots of  changing going on. Can't back track now, nope.

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